So I’m having a bit of an emo phase atm. I don’t know what the hell is wrong with my head. One min I’m like WOOOOO LOVE LIFE, then I’m sat crying in my room.
I can’t complain really, I’ve got a full time job - it has it’s moments but generally I get on well with everyone and they help get me through the day and the stressful times. I’ve got awesome friends, but something just feels like it’s missing. I keep missing Chester and all my uni friends but I know when I was there, particularly the last year I missed home. I guess I’m one of those people that is always looking for something else, something bigger and better. Which I guess in some respects is a good thing but in others it can be pretty bad. Then there’s this stupid virus or whatever it is I can’t get rid of. I’ve had what they think is a sinus infection for months, had blood test after blood test. I’m not too bad when I’m at work, I get a bit grumpy if I don’t get something to eat but on my days off I feel so rough. Today I got up really late got up and dressed and went in town. I’d only been in one shop and I felt really tired a dizzy like I was gonna pass out. Since I got home I’ve just sat on the sofa and I feel like shit!! It’s not right, I can’t remember the last time I felt myself, but every time I go to the doctors they seem to think I’m making it up :(
On the plus side:
- I just ordered some new clothes, actually ordered whole outfits for a change rather than one thing that goes with nothing that I own!
- I’ve got the whole of next week off - going back to Hitchin to see my grandad, one of my friends is coming down from Hitchin for a few days and then it’s Anne Marie’s hen party at the weekend - camping, ghost stories and a few cheeky drinks!
- I’ve got my first gig in a while with Char :)
Avril Lavigne on 21st September. I’m SO excited, I freakin’ love Avril and I’ve never been lucky enough to see her before :) Then we’re off to see The Pretty Reckless and Evanescence in November just after my birthday, can’t wait :D
I guess I’ve gotta just keep going and hope I start to feel better soon.x
